Okay so I should be asleep right now, as its like just gone midnight and I have to get up at 7 tomorrow morning. However, I know I won't get to sleep for ages, my wrists ache to much to write down my thoughts, So writing in here is probably for the best right now 
I had an awesome weekend. It was awesome for me though, not my mum or dad 
Basically I stayed out for the night when I wasn't supposed to, but my phone had no battery to let them know. Eventually at like half 1 at night I used someones phone to let them know where I was (my boyfriends house) but by that time my dad had gone out looking for me, and called loads of my friends So yeah that wasn't too nice. When I was home the next day they were majorly pissed off. My dad did that thing where he said "you'll never know what we mean when we say we were so worried, until you have children of your own". And I kind of knew what he meant. But even so, I was just sick of having curfews and hardly being able to see my boyfriend, so even though I could of used his house phone to call them I chose not too so by the time I did it would be too late for them to say I couldn't stay. I don't usually do stupid things like that to deliberately worry my parents, it just sortof happened and then I felt bad. Its a typical teenage thing to do I suppose. But anyway, I still enjoyed my weekend
It hasn't even been a month yet for me and Ryan, but it feels like so long. Its wierd. I never thought I'd like someone this much in such a short space of time. I guess its because I knew him quite well before we went out and stuff. But yeah, I really really like him I care about him so much, and I don't think he realises. Anyways enough about him.
I'm so tired, I should sleep really. I keep getting headaches recently and bad back, neck and shoulder ache. So I went to the doctors last week and she prescribed me some antibiotics but after I took one today I felt so sick, I hope I'm not reacting funny to them! So yeah thats slightly worrying me which is getting me down a bit.
Also college is quite annoying at the moment. Last night I did my history essay at like 9:00pm. I did finish it but yeah it just made me remember how much effort you have to put in to your education and I'm finding it so hard at the moment. So much work, especially for only 4 subjects. But then I guess thats the difference between GCSE's and ALEVELS. But yes I am struggling 
I recently realised that I'm so lucky to have one of my closest friends. She's called Olivia and I've known her since reception in Primary school. We used to be best mates back then, but we drifted for years cause we always argued and had petty quarrels and stuff. Now we're like best mates again and have been for like the past year and a bit, and shes the best.
Always there when I need her, hilarious to speak to, we have so much in common! She can cheer me up in a second, which is also why I love her to bits! I know we won't drift apart from eachother because She's just a phonecall away and we see eachother loads anyway
Today I was a bit sad at a certain time of the day, I thought of her doing an impression of this guy from X-Factor that makes me giggle (yes we both love XFactor and find the bad auditions hilariously funny!) and it instantly cheered me up 
So yes I'm being all soppy but she rocks! Loveyou Liv!
I think its time to be off to Bedfordshire. Well I am actually in Bed already, just I'm not asleep. Duh.
Nightnight 
