oh its only Izzy.

Okay so I should be asleep right now, as its like just gone midnight and I have to get up at 7 tomorrow morning. However, I know I won't get to sleep for ages, my wrists ache to much to write down my thoughts, So writing in here is probably for the best right now

I had an awesome weekend. It was awesome for me though, not my mum or dad Basically I stayed out for the night when I wasn't supposed to, but my phone had no battery to let them know. Eventually at like half 1 at night I used someones phone to let them know where I was (my boyfriends house) but by that time my dad had gone out looking for me, and called loads of my friends So yeah that wasn't too nice. When I was home the next day they were majorly pissed off. My dad did that thing where he said "you'll never know what we mean when we say we were so worried, until you have children of your own". And I kind of knew what he meant. But even so, I was just sick of having curfews and hardly being able to see my boyfriend, so even though I could of used his house phone to call them I chose not too so by the time I did it would be too late for them to say I couldn't stay. I don't usually do stupid things like that to deliberately worry my parents, it just sortof happened and then I felt bad. Its a typical teenage thing to do I suppose. But anyway, I still enjoyed my weekend

It hasn't even been a month yet for me and Ryan, but it feels like so long. Its wierd. I never thought I'd like someone this much in such a short space of time. I guess its because I knew him quite well before we went out and stuff. But yeah, I really really like him I care about him so much, and I don't think he realises. Anyways enough about him.

I'm so tired, I should sleep really. I keep getting headaches recently and bad back, neck and shoulder ache. So I went to the doctors last week and she prescribed me some antibiotics but after I took one today I felt so sick, I hope I'm not reacting funny to them! So yeah thats slightly worrying me which is getting me down a bit.
Also college is quite annoying at the moment. Last night I did my history essay at like 9:00pm. I did finish it but yeah it just made me remember how much effort you have to put in to your education and I'm finding it so hard at the moment. So much work, especially for only 4 subjects. But then I guess thats the difference between GCSE's and ALEVELS. But yes I am struggling

I recently realised that I'm so lucky to have one of my closest friends. She's called Olivia and I've known her since reception in Primary school. We used to be best mates back then, but we drifted for years cause we always argued and had petty quarrels and stuff. Now we're like best mates again and have been for like the past year and a bit, and shes the best.
Always there when I need her, hilarious to speak to, we have so much in common! She can cheer me up in a second, which is also why I love her to bits! I know we won't drift apart from eachother because She's just a phonecall away and we see eachother loads anyway
Today I was a bit sad at a certain time of the day, I thought of her doing an impression of this guy from X-Factor that makes me giggle (yes we both love XFactor and find the bad auditions hilariously funny!) and it instantly cheered me up So yes I'm being all soppy but she rocks! Loveyou Liv!

I think its time to be off to Bedfordshire. Well I am actually in Bed already, just I'm not asleep. Duh.

Nightnight

So yeah I havent wrote in here for a while, and I don't think anyone noticed. Maybe I'm writing in here cause I'm trying to waste time, when I should be finishing a history essay. Which has to be in for tomorrow. I've wrote like half a page of crap that doesn't really make sence But I think its slightly unfair getting an essay on a subject I've only had like 3 lessons of. But anyways, that aside, I have a headache Being on here probably doesn't help but I dont want to sleep either (N)
You know when your in that mood where you keep getting distracted, accidently on purpose.

In other news. I got my GCSE results on the 21st August I was happy, I PASSED MATHS! I didnt think I would. Overall I got 5 B's, 2 C's, 2 A's and 1 A* So I was pleased.

Ive started college now, its going pretty well. Apart from the History essay that is. I'm studying History (duh), Photography, Media studies and Drama All of which are interesting. In drama the other day we had to learn lines then perform them, and I didn't forget any so that was good. I was so nervous before hand though, I go all shaky and stuff! But in the end it was fine (Y).

I also have a boyfriend Yaaay. I'm happy. I liked him for ages, and like I found out he liked me, so I told him, we met up and had a long chat about it, then he asked me out on the 6th September . I reeeally like him. and I know he won't read this, but he means more to me than he realises. I went out with him before like a year ago but we split up. And I liked him for quite a while after. I didnt see him for like months and months, but he was at one of my best mates parties a few weeks back and I realised I liked him again. You know when you havent seen someone in ages and you don't realise how much you miss them until you hug them again? It was like that. and since the party I couldnt stop thinking about him. And now I'm so happy we go out I don't want to sound stupid cause I'm probably rambling on about him too much but meh (Y). I think he's lovely, not perfect, but who is? Every moment I spend with him I'm happy, and I hate leaving him at the end of the day We have only gone out like not even a week, But cause we went out before, I remember what it was like, and I realised how much I liked him then. I love burying my face in his shoulder and smelling him, he always smells so nice I like looking into his eyes and wondering what he's thinking about. And the way he laughs and smiles, it just makes me so happy I love holding hands with him and walking along cause I feel so safe and close to him. Hugging him is like the best thing ever, he's 6ft 4 so He like he rests his chin on my head haha. Just having him near me makes me happy, and I really want this to last. Sometimes I want to tell him how I feel about him, like how much he means to me, but you know when your too scared of how they will react? Like you don't know if it will put them off, scare them ,flatter them, etc?! So yeah, I think I'll keep it to myself for now. I just realised how stupid that sounds, I'm writing this in a blog The whole world could read it if they wanted to. But not many people actually read my blog so its all good. Ahh I love having someone I care about this much, knowing I can see him and stuff. I swear I always fall for people so easily, like its hard sometimes, cause I hate the thought of losing him and stuff. I must be sounding so Naive, but I don't care at this moment in time. Cause he's on my mind and I'm on one of those random rants where you have to type about a certain thing on your mind. and he's that 'thing' (:

Have you ever felt like I do about a certain person?
Like have you ever felt that as soon as you walk away from them, you miss them.
And as soon as you see them your instantly happy?
And when you look into their eyes you don't want to look away?
And everything else I mentioned?

Please leave comments, I'd love to hear what you have to say
I shall write soon!!

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